Monthly Archives: September 2011

this is my story and I own it

Posted on September 28, 2011 by

I had a conversation and a half with my husband David yesterday about my last two blog entries. He looks at my blog from a contents perspective and plays the independent advocate for me from time to time when I … Continue reading →

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the public face and the private face

Posted on September 26, 2011 by

Was yesterday’s entry a hard one to write? It wasn’t hard to write but it was hard to publish. My father is no longer around to read this and start cursing me out, to talk badly about me behind my … Continue reading →

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Stop thinking that it wasn’t that bad

Posted on September 25, 2011 by

Today’s blog is inspired by Lilly, writer of LilliesLoves, Lilly who has amazing faith and love in her strong heart, Lilly who has been through hell and back and still keeps going. You give me the strength to write about … Continue reading →

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strong pitch after big glitch

Posted on September 22, 2011 by

I am here with my music, ensconced in it and safe. A melodic shrine of tunes and beats that surrounds me, keeps me humming and swaying within. Music makes things better for me. Today is my first day out of … Continue reading →

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Posted on September 20, 2011 by

I just wanted to say sorry for yesterday’s blog. I shouldn’t have written anything at all. I’ll see you again some other day when I’ve got something more upbeat to say.

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no, everything is not okay.

Posted on September 19, 2011 by

I haven’t been in here because I’m sparing you the worst of it: a cursing, spitting, flying diatribe of hate, anger and general lowness directed at myself. When I’m as depressed and lacking any kind of drive or inspiration as … Continue reading →

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Thank you, house

Posted on September 15, 2011 by

I thought I ought to come back with something. It’s a gentler day today. Things get quite edgy in here with my emotions being thorns in my body, sharp blades and rocky corners. I stumble through that labyrinth of strong … Continue reading →

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insurance nightmares

Posted on September 11, 2011 by

Tread on me not with impunity is a nice Irish proverb that I’d like to share with the staff at Zurich insurance company. Zurich employees are not just rude with us and negligent, they are also quite plainly breaking our … Continue reading →

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YOU ARE DOING SO MUCH BETTER!

Posted on September 8, 2011 by

Good morning! I am feeling better today. I’m back to my baseline of happiness (see chart). That’s great news. A few days ago I told you that I felt off kilter. And I’m prepared to circle back here today and … Continue reading →

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keeping busy

Posted on September 5, 2011 by

Sorry folks. I’ve been a bit off kilter in recent days. I need to have a think about what it is I want to write about that in here and how. Until then, I am going to avoid you. My … Continue reading →

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Loving Someone with Borderline Personality Disorder, a book by Shari Manning

Posted on September 3, 2011 by

Some of the books I ordered a long time ago finally arrived this week. How is that for timing? Leo starts nursery school again on Monday after a long summer break and I receive a truck load of books. Perfect! … Continue reading →

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the lovely Leo

Posted on September 1, 2011 by

Leo starts preschool again on Monday. Until then I plan on spending a lot of time with him. He’ll be gone until the afternoon every day, until 5pm on some days. Wow! There is a tiny sigh of relief because … Continue reading →

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