Tag Archives: borderline personality disorder

a thing or two about clinical depression

Posted on September 8, 2012 by

This is a response to a comment written by the amazing Annie on September 4th on Ian’s blog that I’m going to stick on here so my depression peeps in this space can read it, too: Dear Annie, I agree … Continue reading →

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I can skip better than you

Posted on May 3, 2012 by

I’m just a person. I’m just a person whose emotional development stopped cold in its tracks for a good long time when I was two years old. I’m a person with lots of love for lots of people and lots … Continue reading →

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autobiographical prose paper [with commentary on creative process]

Posted on April 13, 2012 by

I’ve handed in the following paper for my creative writing course. For once, I am happy with my writing (but you can still leave comments about how awesome I am). I realize that I need to do a lot more … Continue reading →

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coat of cold

Posted on March 4, 2012 by

the chimes of icicles that are your touch the coat of cold that is your love the snow that is the soft quilt of death inside my heart the swinging of the room the violence, the light bulb far above, … Continue reading →

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[coherent title HERE]

Posted on February 23, 2012 by

just a WordShuffle today (still feeling uncomfortable with poems). you’ll probably recognize it (or parts of it) as something i’ve rewritten, mashed up, chewed on and then spat back out… side note: the layout template that i’m using for this … Continue reading →

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white, lace, dress

Posted on February 16, 2012 by

This whole poetry thing is bringing me right back to some of the obstacles I am facing. A lot of stuff is bubbling up, stuff from the past, stuff about my family, and lots of lesbian sexual fantasies. I don’t … Continue reading →

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Kick me, Baby!

Posted on February 13, 2012 by

Someone on this blog threatened to kick me yesterday and that immediately made me feel better. I am not alone, was the essence of the message. And that feels awesome. That’s why I’m here, willing myself to post to this … Continue reading →

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poetry and I

Posted on February 12, 2012 by

okay, so here is a nice post Carl on stillfugue wrote a while back (and so much better than i could ever do it) about how i feel right now  : creating the dog doo .  [read that post first … Continue reading →

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ok, so…poems

Posted on February 12, 2012 by

nevermind. i deleted it. the garbage, the post that was here before. just a nice song today: ————————————- Keith Jarrett: The Köln Concert: Part II C (1975)   …this makes me love life so very very much! have a beautiful … Continue reading →

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Short story final version [with commentary on creative process]

Posted on January 29, 2012 by

Remember the excerpts from the short story I was working on a while ago? I finished a version of the story–albeit not one you would expect–and handed it in as part of a fiction assignment (for a Writing course I’m … Continue reading →

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e.e. cummings: i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)

Posted on January 2, 2012 by

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)        i fear                 … Continue reading →

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MDD – Major Depressive Disorder

Posted on January 2, 2012 by

source: Wikipedia. Major depressive disorder (MDD) (also known as recurrent depressive disorder, clinical depression, major depression, unipolar depression, or unipolar disorder) is a mental disorder characterized by an all-encompassing low mood accompanied by low self-esteem, and by loss of interest … Continue reading →

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death paid a visit (but i escaped)

Posted on January 2, 2012 by

my boy calls me from downstairs. his voice (like angels singing) saves my life. his laughter is Little Bells in the soundless, listless void. he doesn’t care when I am low he needs me his love is strong and unconditional. … Continue reading →

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Running on empty in search of “the zone”

Posted on November 18, 2011 by

Homework time. Let’s see where a stream of consciousness freewrite takes me today: anything goes. Running going sinking heaving forming sand box kiss me fuck me tie me to the bed post kitchen baskets seven eight nine million phone calls … Continue reading →

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apartment news, stories about wall street, and a tribute to John Healy

Posted on October 23, 2011 by

Good morning dear Reader! Thank you for being here with me today. Things have been slightly crazed here this week and will be again next week. I don’t know where to start. Let’s start with the biggest news. The burdensome, … Continue reading →

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about parenting

Posted on October 14, 2011 by

Good afternoon dear Reader! Thank you for dropping by. I appreciate it. I’ve recovered well from my recent free-fall. The last week was hard on me but my terrific psychologist helped me to overcome the worst of it during a … Continue reading →

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Thank you for the Love

Posted on October 11, 2011 by

Hello everybody. Thanks for being here and reading. It makes me feel good that you are… well, there for me, in a way; especially on days when I’m not feeling so hot. I’ve had a rough couple of days and … Continue reading →

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this is my story and I own it

Posted on September 28, 2011 by

I had a conversation and a half with my husband David yesterday about my last two blog entries. He looks at my blog from a contents perspective and plays the independent advocate for me from time to time when I … Continue reading →

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the public face and the private face

Posted on September 26, 2011 by

Was yesterday’s entry a hard one to write? It wasn’t hard to write but it was hard to publish. My father is no longer around to read this and start cursing me out, to talk badly about me behind my … Continue reading →

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Stop thinking that it wasn’t that bad

Posted on September 25, 2011 by

Today’s blog is inspired by Lilly, writer of LilliesLoves, Lilly who has amazing faith and love in her strong heart, Lilly who has been through hell and back and still keeps going. You give me the strength to write about … Continue reading →

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