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- Happy Birthday Leo
- End of Summer
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- xtcian’s blog about antidepressants
- The Joy Formidable
- Pearl Jam : Glen Hansard
- Bark Along to Patti Smith’s New Song Banga
- More Balls Than Most
- Mumford & Sons & Stars & Moons, oh Babel! How I Love Thee — and i will not wait!
- The XX — New Album: Coexist
- Yeah Yeah Yeahs …. slowly catching on
- … one more from the Mystery Jets … and also: Edward Sharpe & the Magnetic Zeros
- from beneath rubble and saw-dust … Mystery Jets / Radlands as heard on birp.fm
- New album Synthetica by Metric
- Sail–Awolnation gone Nanalew and Meekakitty
- Surrounded By Your Friends
- Kicked My Monkey, a bad lip reading by BLR
- The Lion’s Roar by First Aid Kit
- SHOP CLOSED — on break , out of power , getting juice , back soon
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Tag Archives: MDD
a thing or two about clinical depression
This is a response to a comment written by the amazing Annie on September 4th on Ian’s blog that I’m going to stick on here so my depression peeps in this space can read it, too: Dear Annie, I agree … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Clinical Depression, Depression, Major Depressive Disorder, Severe Depressive Illness, Uncategorized (Everything)
Tagged Abilify, abuse, adrenaline, alcoholism, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, CBT, Celexa, Cognitive Behavior Treatment, DBT, depression, Dialectical Behavior Treatment DBT, diazepam, dopamine, family, Lamicdal, Lamotrigine, major depression, MDD, Mirtazapine, neurotransmitters, norepinephrine noradrenalin, post-traumatic stress disorder, Prozac, PTSD, Quietiapine, Seroquel, serotonin, stress, the void, Valium, Wellbutrin, Xanax, Zyprexa
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autobiographical prose paper [with commentary on creative process]
I’ve handed in the following paper for my creative writing course. For once, I am happy with my writing (but you can still leave comments about how awesome I am). I realize that I need to do a lot more … Continue reading
Posted in autobiography, Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD, Uncategorized (Everything)
Tagged abuse, adrenaline, anxiety, autobiography, borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, major depression, Marsha Linehan, MDD, mental illness, neurotransmitters, post-traumatic stress disorder, PTSD, Rachel Yehuda, rape, severe depressive illness, stress, the loonie ward, Valium
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coat of cold
the chimes of icicles that are your touch the coat of cold that is your love the snow that is the soft quilt of death inside my heart the swinging of the room the violence, the light bulb far above, … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Major Depressive Disorder, Poetry, PTSD, Uncategorized (Everything), WordShuffle
Tagged abuse, alcoholism, borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, drugs, family, God Loves Me, I know God Loves Me, in the hands of God, major depression, MDD, poetry, post-traumatic stress disorder, PTSD, the void, WordShuffle
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[coherent title HERE]
just a WordShuffle today (still feeling uncomfortable with poems). you’ll probably recognize it (or parts of it) as something i’ve rewritten, mashed up, chewed on and then spat back out… side note: the layout template that i’m using for this … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Fiction, Major Depressive Disorder, Poetry, PTSD, Uncategorized (Everything), WordShuffle
Tagged abuse, adrenaline, agony, alcoholism, angels, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, catatonia, despair, diazepam, dopamine, drugs, family, fiction, Lamicdal, Lamotrigine, major depression, Major Depressive Disorder, MDD, Mirtazapine, neurotransmitters, Nootropil, PTSD, Quietiapine, Seroquel, serotonin, so close and yet so far, stress, the loonie ward, the void, Valium, Wellbutrin, WordShuffle, Zyprexa
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white, lace, dress
This whole poetry thing is bringing me right back to some of the obstacles I am facing. A lot of stuff is bubbling up, stuff from the past, stuff about my family, and lots of lesbian sexual fantasies. I don’t … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Fiction, Major Depressive Disorder, Poetry, PTSD, Uncategorized (Everything), WordShuffle
Tagged abuse, adrenaline, alcoholism, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, drugs, family, fiction, major depression, Major Depressive Disorder, MDD, poetry, post-traumatic stress disorder, PTSD, WordShuffle
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Kick me, Baby!
Someone on this blog threatened to kick me yesterday and that immediately made me feel better. I am not alone, was the essence of the message. And that feels awesome. That’s why I’m here, willing myself to post to this … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Fiction, Major Depressive Disorder, Poetry, PTSD, Uncategorized (Everything), WordShuffle
Tagged abuse, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, fiction, major depression, Major Depressive Disorder, MDD, PTSD, WordShuffle
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ok, so…poems
nevermind. i deleted it. the garbage, the post that was here before. just a nice song today: ————————————- Keith Jarrett: The Köln Concert: Part II C (1975) …this makes me love life so very very much! have a beautiful … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Fiction, Major Depressive Disorder, Poetry, PTSD, Uncategorized (Everything), WordShuffle
Tagged abuse, adrenaline, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, dopamine, fiction, major depression, MDD, neurotransmitters, poetry, post-traumatic stress disorder, PTSD, stress, WordShuffle
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Short story final version [with commentary on creative process]
Remember the excerpts from the short story I was working on a while ago? I finished a version of the story–albeit not one you would expect–and handed it in as part of a fiction assignment (for a Writing course I’m … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Fiction, Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD, Uncategorized (Everything)
Tagged borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, diazepam, fiction, Lamotrigine, major depression, Major Depressive Disorder, MDD, piracetam, post-traumatic stress disorder, PTSD, Quietiapine, Seroquel, Valium, Wellbutrin, Xanax
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e.e. cummings: i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling) i fear … Continue reading
MDD – Major Depressive Disorder
source: Wikipedia. Major depressive disorder (MDD) (also known as recurrent depressive disorder, clinical depression, major depression, unipolar depression, or unipolar disorder) is a mental disorder characterized by an all-encompassing low mood accompanied by low self-esteem, and by loss of interest … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD, Uncategorized (Everything)
Tagged abuse, adrenaline, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, Cognitive Behavior Treatment, DBT, depression, Dialectical Behavior Treatment DBT, diazepam, dopamine, Lamicdal, Lamotrigine, major depression, Major Depressive Disorder, MDD, Mirtazapine, neurotransmitters, Nootropil, norepinephrine noradrenalin, piracetam, post-traumatic stress disorder, PTSD, Quietiapine, Seroquel, Valium, Wellbutrin, Xanax
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death paid a visit (but i escaped)
my boy calls me from downstairs. his voice (like angels singing) saves my life. his laughter is Little Bells in the soundless, listless void. he doesn’t care when I am low he needs me his love is strong and unconditional. … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD, Uncategorized (Everything)
Tagged abuse, adrenaline, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, Cognitive Behavior Treatment, depression, diazepam, dopamine, Lamicdal, Lamotrigine, major depression, Major Depressive Disorder, MDD, Mirtazapine, neurotransmitters, Nootropil, norepinephrine noradrenalin, piracetam, post-traumatic stress disorder, PTSD, Quietiapine, Seroquel, Valium, Wellbutrin
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thought-skating 031
Random Thoughts: Time. Time is cotton-candy. I am happy now. I have lots on my mind. Five percent of it gets packaged in speech, a piece of cake. The lovely unfolding, purling of conversations that gently lick at the perfect … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Fiction, Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD, Uncategorized (Everything)
Tagged abuse, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, Celexa, depression, fiction, major depression, Major Depressive Disorder, MDD, post-traumatic stress disorder, PTSD, Quietiapine, Seroquel, Xanax, Zyprexa
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my home town (and why I won’t go back)
Good morning dear Reader! In my heart, there is always an element of wanting to be somewhere else (and, once I get there, somewhere else…). It’s a feeling I have everywhere except in New York and in certain places in … Continue reading
The contents of my head
Good evening dear reader! Sorry I didn’t write to you yesterday. I thought about you a lot all day. But I was in a foul mood and cranky. Today I woke up thinking about you. I wonder what you might … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD, Uncategorized (Everything)
Tagged abuse, adrenaline, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, Celexa, depression, dopamine, major depression, Major Depressive Disorder, MDD, Mirtazapine, neurotransmitters, norepinephrine noradrenalin, post-traumatic stress disorder, PTSD, Zyprexa
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about the beauty of life and my mother
Hello my dear reader! How are you today? We are doing fine, thank you. Leo and I are going back to Manhattan on the train later today to go stay with my friend Claude for one night. Then tomorrow David … Continue reading
Keep it coming
I just got back from clothes shopping. I hate clothes shopping. I hate any kind of shopping because I get claustrophobic and if there is the thumping bass of some Rihanna song blurting in the changing rooms, then I might … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD, Uncategorized (Everything)
Tagged abuse, adrenaline, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, Celexa, depression, Major Depressive Disorder, MDD, post-traumatic stress disorder, PTSD, Xanax, Zyprexa
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Cortisol high-flyer, Serotonin low-rider
Good morning everybody. Or is it not morning anymore? I’m sorry I’m not really with it today. I’d like to say I feel as if I just got done running a marathon. But I’d be making it up because I’ve … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD, Uncategorized (Everything)
Tagged abuse, adrenaline, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, major depression, Major Depressive Disorder, MDD, neurotransmitters, norepinephrine noradrenalin, post-traumatic stress disorder, PTSD, serotonin
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Dooooooooork!
Let’s start with today’s music suggestion: Aloe Blacc – I need a Dollar I am already in love with my blog, infatuated, intrigued, even fascinated, and so glad I stopped dilly-dallying around it. I was so sick of being alone … Continue reading
A way to be in touch when i’m out of touch
Dear Family and Friends! I am writing this blog for you, my family and friends. This way you know what I am up to and you can see Leo and hear what he is doing whenever it suits you and … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD, Uncategorized (Everything)
Tagged abuse, adrenaline, anxiety, borderline personality disorder, BPD, Celexa, depression, diazepam, major depression, Major Depressive Disorder, MDD, Mirtazapine, post-traumatic stress disorder, Prozac, PTSD, Quietiapine, Seroquel, serotonin, Valium, Xanax, Zyprexa
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